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Character Info
▒ Character Name: Jesse Pinkman
▒ Canon Name: Breaking Bad
▒ Canon Point: Post-4.04, 'Bullet Points'
▒ Age: 25
▒ Appearance: [ link ]
▒ Setting: [ jesse ] at the breaking bad wiki
▒ Abilities: Jesse is a normal human being and as such is pretty limited as to what he can do, power-wise. But he does know how to make some pretty damn good crank.
▒ Personality: At first glance, you've got a deadbeat. Jesse grew up in a bit of the darker side of Albuquerque, New Mexico, and he acts a hell of a lot tougher than he is. To most of the people in his life, Jesse's just the drug addict fuck-up who's made more bad choices than good ones along the road. A lost cause, good for nothing useful. Enough people cram that sort of assessment and someone might start buying it themselves. Jesse's a troubled guy, and he's seen a lot more shit at his age than somebody probably should. He's one giant contradiction, someone with a lot of walls up around him - to keep out the bad shit, to keep hidden the other bad shit - who can simultaneously wear his heart on his sleeve. A cocky ego on top of a whole mountain of self-doubt.
Jesse has an arrogance about him that's a sort of necessity in the kind of world that he's lived in. He starts off a guy whose biggest concerns are slinging teenths of meth, "sitting around, smoking marijuana, eating Cheetos and masturbating". He wears his pants low and his shirts too big, spends his time playing video games until an old school teacher of his from high school approaches him about partnering up to cook meth together.
The rest is history. Jesse's graduated from small time drug dealing to working with the largest meth distributor in the southwest, from slinging an ounce a week to making more than two-hundred pounds a week. None of it's anything that he's proud of, but it's certainly toughened him up over the months. Jesse's seen some shit, and he's found a new rock bottom for nearly every one that he's thought he's hit. He's been beaten, he's been kidnapped, he's had a gun pointed to his head more times than he'd like to count. In one case, he was even forced through a series of circumstances to murder somebody, Gale Boetticher, a potential other cook for Gus Fring's meth superlab - without doing so, he would have gotten both himself and his partner killed through some newfound irrelevance.
It's a big moment for Jesse, possibly one of the most life-changing in his entire life thus far, the cold-blooded murder of someone who didn't even necessarily deserve it. It starts a decay within him, and then a transformation, from all that posturing, that scumbag, meth-peddling, tough guy punk who, sure, quietly functions as a caretaker and cares so deeply for those who are important to him in his life, to a boy who's turning into a man, who's really beginning to question his own moral compass and reevaluate his stance on his position in the world and in his business. He tail slides completely after the murder of Gale, but here's the thing: He doesn't remember it in the machine.
It's his crime that was taken away, and it shapes him thusly - he's still the same old Jesse Pinkman he was at the beginning of the show, because he has no real reason to have changed and grown as a person like he has throughout his canon. Jesse Pinkman has amounted to just the same shard-slinging, defensive, bit of a scumbag that he starts out as, some of a temper and more than enough sarcasm to arm himself with. He still maintains that much of him. He's no murderer, but he's still a self-confessed junkie and a meth cook - and a damn good one at that.
Despite everything he's done, Jesse feels like this world is the one where he belongs, his self-esteem keeping him from approaching any cleaner potential that he might think he has. So far as Jesse's concerned, making meth is the one thing he's good at - hell, he's one of the best cooks in the country, depending on who you ask - and there's a big part of him that needs that importance in his life to keep from backsliding into territories he might have in the past, particularly his intermittent drug use. Jesse's not a stupid guy, has the potential for knowledge but lacks the wisdom, but he is a perfectionist who's constantly falling so incredibly short of what he thinks he could be.
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▒ Your Crime: Murder.